Frustrated

RIGHT NOW, I wish I can Sitting Talking Unlimited Dreaming Yawning instead of struggle searching info for my assignment. I want to STUDY well!!

Had you ever facing problem while trying to complete your assignments? Am so frustrated right now due to assignment given by my pharmacist. Yet, am the first one to present among my friends. I have no idea of how to start my topic. It does not same like what I have done in college. This time, I have to present in front of pharmacists and pharmacy assistant instead of lecturer. And my pharmacist suggest me to present in Malay if I can due to present of pharmacy assistant. Hmm, are you kidding me? Want me present in Malay. Only God know how bad my communication in BM. Even have problem in speaking and you want me to use BM some more. Am using English during my study, not BM. So, how you want me to explain by using BM? ><

Someone please lend me a reference book! Am kind of need to read through a book before surf internet. Though website searching is so convenient but I dont know which one is relevant for me and it too much. I have no idea of how to arrange the flow :(

Goshhh! Am BLUE to the max!! I need a book~~~

Christmas's present

Went to Suria Sabah on Christmas, 25.12.2012 with my ex-mate,Angelia. Shopping alone and dinner alone at Station One after sending her to Upperstar to meet her course mate. It happening like a drama. Single girl who walks around everywhere and seeing those couple hanging around with their love. What a Christmas I have, some more away from hometown. Sigh.

People around saw me like a freak, especially the couple behind me, seeing me taking photos non stop here and there. I was so shy to take photos where there are people around. I;m impressed with those who can take photos despite the sight of people around. I just can't do it :(

 Station One Special Fish Fillet Rice. If you like something bit spicy and sour, you can try on this =)

Next station, Old Town White Coffee, One Borneo. Exchange gift session coming. Excited to see lot of presents on the table right? ^^ BUT, am not include in this activity. It held by my ex mate group. I thought they had exchange their gift at Upperstar but they having beer session there instead of exchange gift. Am so jealous seeing this activity with them. Someone exchange gift with me please. I never exchange gift with others. I want to know this special feeling too!

Below are some photos of them which I took from their FB. =)

Can you see there a cake. Actually they are celebrate birthday of one who born on 25 Dec instead of Christmas. By the way, they decide to celebrate Christmas at the same time too. Happy birthday Poh Ling, the one who wearing purple check shirt.

Ahem, this is my ex-mate, Angelia. And the guy beside her is... Someone who admire her. Hehe.

Last but not least, I had receive Christmas present from someone too. Thank you! It's HELLO KITTY warm christmas wishes! Heart it ♥ If you still don't know me, I can tell you now that I'm a HELLO KITTY freak :D Sometime, am so angry that everyone around me know me easily even the one who just get to know me but I didn't know them well.

Can you see, it 3D design. Really love it!! I was like a little kids shriek around the second I open it. And every page full with description =)

Thanks again to someone =)

With love,
Carolin.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone! Went to One Borneo last Sunday to meet my girl. As i promise on previous post, I will take more christmas decor if am going to One Borneo again. Pictures above are taken from One Borneo Hypermall. But.. Not much photos been taken, only one decor. So, sorry.

After that, we planned to go Suria Sabah. So, below are some huge Christmas trees that been taken along the way to Suria Sabah =)

Dang dang! Here we reach Suria Sabah =)

Some decors that available in Suria Sabah. They don't have nice theme at the center of the mall like One Borneo but still, it is nice with the white christmas decor =)

Bought this jean blouse from Voir as my christmas present. "Christmas present" just an excuse for me to buy this jean blouse because I didn't celebrate christmas =D I do wish this blouse can be my dress BUT as u can see, it too short for me to become dress :( 

I do fall in love with Suria Sabah after having shopping trip last Sunday. It bigger and more shops compare to One Borneo. One thing I like is the shop available there have classified into 2 types, either the price is cheap or expensive. Unlike One Borneo, 95% is expensive :( And I love the Upperstar! Satisfied that I had spent my dinner there last week. Hehe. I wish to go there one more time before return back to my Papar's hostel.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!!!

With love,
Carolin.

Tomorrow

What day is tomorrow? Is Sunday. Any special event for you? Yes, i do have and is a great event which i cant attend. Sorry, brother. All you need is love and here the day you anticipate come. Congratulation! Happy marry life! 

Just a moment ago, i received a phone from dad. Joyful atmosphere link me to imagine how my house look like right now. Full with people, beautiful decorations, nice family photo, so and so. Everyone talking the happy topic, kidding with each others while am alone here. Am not complaining of the lonely feeling, am not lonely but i do wish i can be there instead of living in this empty hostel.

Calling daddy and talking with everyone there, dad, mum, uncles, aunties, cousins and so and so. I wanna share their happiness together. I wanna busy preparing together for tomorrow. I wanna see how pretty my house is by my own, not through photos. I wanna join the jolly time as well. I wanna...

I believe tomorrow will be a  good day. Friend's birthday, family day organised by pharmacy department and wedding party of my brother, 3 events on the same day. What a great day. Luckily there is a family day here, or else i will be so depressed. Sense the happiness at Kuching while alone at hostel, not a great feeling.

Thanks daddy mummy and sister for convince me. I know study is the most important stuff I have to do now. I will try my best and make you proud of me one day. I promise. 

Brother, have a memorable day tomorrow and be the happy one! Again, sorry for not attending your wedding. 

With love,

Carolin.

Friday night

Eating maggie mee. Reading magazine. Trawl internet. Listen to music. Chatting. Blogging. What else i can do on this Friday night? Chatting with my roommate or housemate? That is impossible. Why? Everyone going back to their sweet home on Friday night and I the one who stay far away from my cozy home.

I won't cry during this lonely night just because I'm alone. I promise myself i will be strong. I will do it. Somehow, i feel so freedom staying alone in this big house. I can do whatever i want. Not need care about  others. No one will asking "why you do this and that?" "what are you doing?" "why you laughing there?" "why don't you talk?" and so and so. I was like, that none of your business. Stop asking me.

Staying with others not an easy task and working as well. Oh my colleagues, can you please stop gossip?? I really prefer chatting with boys rather than girls. Your mouth are so bad and smelly. Though gossip help getting close with each others but not this way k. Have you ever think if people talking bad about you one day? And how your feeling?

I wish i can finish training here faster. It's hard to stay at the place where you can hear gossip everyday.

With love,
Carolin.

Family love

Funny how the world works. When I was younger, I wish to grow up and move forward faster. Now that I am older, I want to go back to my childhood. Only God know how much i wish to move backward, to my happy childhood life. Be adult isn't easy.

Million of people is single in the world and million of people do not have true friends in the world. Sometimes, i wonder is there anyone really care about me, though am single and still cant find a true friend. And YES! I found the answer today. My pretty family do always care about me. I feel so warm and sweet when my pretty sis asking me " Really busy till no news ar you?" and I was like "Anything happen today o something wrong?" Oh well, the thing is because i will text my sis everyday but today really no news from me and she was like "Anything happen to me" Aww~ It is so sweet right =) Power of family love! 

Everyday and every night, there will be a presentation done by me to my mum and dad. It was like daily report to them but i do love this task. They know everything about me here, so, wont worry too much about me. I should be strong here, no matter what. I promise to myself. I believe my family always stand by my side no matter what though my dad kind of don't want make things difficult and complicated, always advice my not to crash with others, let live peacefully. So, people, please treat me nicely and don't make things difficult =)

Study life isn't easy but working life is more harder. It's easy that you can complete your task by the same day but it hard to communicate with your colleagues and adapt to working environment as well. Each person have their own character. Hard for you to tolerate all of them. And what i facing now in this hospital is.. GOSSIP!! Girls here Omg, should be women here! Really "3 aunty 6 grandma" Gossip everywhere non stop. You guys are so scary.. 

And two things i don't like here is damn hot and lot mosquitoes! Haiz. Well, stop it here and calm down. Good night all =)

With love,

Carolin.

Christmas @ One Borneo Hypermall

Merry Christmas!! Went to One Borneo before land to posting area. Recall back to one year ago when seeing christmas decorations at One Borneo because that my first time come to Sabah for study. Time flies. One year had pass and another half year to go here. 

I really fall in love with christmas decorations at One Borneo. They have the creative idea and it is pretty and gorgeous. Still remember there are marine life decoration here last year while this year they put on fairy-tale theme. Great one! Girl always live in fairy-tale world. Dreaming to become Cinderella or Snow White, meeting their prince, kissing and having a wonderful marriage life =)

 Well, everyone want to take photo with the sweet couple (bear) ^^

I dream to... To be like the sweet bear, living happily with my love one under the classic crown. Just a dream...

And not forgotten, the usual huge christmas tree is available here too. Only manage to take the decoration available at the center of One Borneo. Promise to take more if having chance to go One Borneo during my Christmas break. =)

With love,
Carolin.

Update

Hello DECEMBER, last month in 2012. Hope you will treat me nice. No more sickness and give me more happiness! 

Busy working life, no internet connection, laziness etc. That's why i didn't update for so many months. Here come a short update about my life.

Again, started my 2nd and the last posting at Hospital Papar. I don't want to comment so much. Just hope i can survive another 14 weeks here. And now, am waiting for the coming soon holiday,Christmas. Want to have a rest at KK but not here. Damn you mosquitoes, my pretty skin had been destroyed by you. Red dots all the way.

Well, end my post here. Just a short update of me =) Take care.

With love,

Carolin.

Posting life

Been awhile didn't update my post due to broadband connection problem. Guess where am i right now. Currently off to Hospital Kota Kinabatangan for practical for 3 months and 10 days. A rural place where i can't online by using digi broadband. So, that's the reason why i can't online for period of time. Let see some photos of mine from instagram during posting ^^

Been placed at in-patient department for one month. What i did here? Supply of floor stock and unit of use in the morning and did some packing at noon. Usually will be very free at noon. Pretty less order from ward unless emergency case or having new patients. So, finding some packing to spend my time. Frankly speaking, can't learn more here because it isn't a big hospital and limited facilities here. But really free here and the staffs are nice as well, treat us like a family.  

Methy salicylate ointment, having analgesic effect. Usually use to massage. Because it's oily so a bit annoying while prepared it ^^

Chlorpheniramine tablet 4mg, you might familiar with it because everyone ever consume this. It use for treatment of flu and cough.

Dang dang~ This is what i usually did in the morning. Supply of floor stock to female ward, male ward, maternity ward, paediatric ward and emergency place. There is a trolley as you always seen in hospital which push by nurses but i didn't have chance to take the photos yet.

My instagram. Feel free to follow me if you want =) More and more updated life will be post by me through here ^^

Shopping

Everywhere sale here, i don't know whether Kuching have the same condition? So,last shopping before go to posting. And gonna to quit been shopaholic for 4 months. Hope i can survive :p Good chance for me to save money as well =)

Top from PADINI

 Top from J&Y

Cardigan from VOIR

I like 3 of them but i have to choose either top, so sending my sis mms for her opinion. End up bought the top from J&Y. I like the print on peach colour design which i have fall in love recently. Peach colour is so famous here, cant find any in Kuching, maybe got but seldom. Bought me one cardigan since i dont have any yet. Is it suit me? =)  Went to haircut too. Do you realize it? :p 

Everything settle just left packing. Hmmmm.... No mood to pack at all but still have to pack at the end. Having posting briefing tomorrow. Sigh. It's coming soon ><